Yep thats me, soon to be 30. I'm still single but never
lonely. Who me lonely? Please why should I be? Got my friends,
and family; and a man always at my side pleasing me, so
why marry.Maybe its because I can't seem to settle down
with anyone, maybe I haven't met the right man for me. Yes
still searching, searching but not desperate...... not me.
Wake up everyday thankful to the almighty for giving me
a body that's clean and healthy, Just pray to meet nice
guys not idiots, they're not for me.
Been asked to marry but passed up the opportunity, wasn't
sure he fit the profile of who my perfect man suppose to
be. The perfect man who is he? Dam maybe he was in my life
already and I just wasn't ready Mama sometimes say to me,
you're getting older honey, need to think realistically
Why change something that has been working fine for me just
to please society. Nah thats not me!!
But what about financial stability and starting a family.
Don't need money or Pinckney to make me happy, my lifestyle
is supported by I and I only Love, what does this mean to
me? This should come naturally but just never did for me
What sometimes feels like love is a feeling most times misunderstood
by many. It's sad but true and it may seem wrong to you
but it's been working just fine for me. Maybe one day I'll
fall in love and marry But in the mean time Ill continue
setting my own rules to stay happy and not be bothered by
how society views me.
Hey this is just my opinion so don't take it seriously
Wouldn't this all be a big joke if I six months from now
I'm married and expecting a baby.
Dreaded HIV Test
How many of you have dreaded going to your
good old neighborhood doctor and having asked this question
" So when was the last time you've had an HIV test
Now you fumble unable to look this man/woman
in the face and then say you've never had the guts to do
so. Yep, if you're like many people who choose to run away
from reality, and the last time you've been tested was for
insurance purposes then this article is for you.
You sit and make up various reasons why you
shouldn't get tested like," I feel great"
or "I don't have AIDS " or "I play
sports and never get tired " or "I'm afraid
of needles" , or the ultimate "It can't
possibly happen to me". Well darlings the big picture
is that it's not all about YOU. Imagine feeling great for
10 years straight, having multiple or even one partner who
you wish to spend the rest of your life with and then finding
out you've had this disease for years now, do you understand
how many lives you have affected or infected?
Yep it's about time we stopped being selfish,
only thinking about ourselves and start taking responsibility
for those who trust us with their lives. Most of us prefer
living our lives and never finding out. I don't know about
you, but my fear of having this test done wasn't about living
with AIDS and getting sick if the results came back positive,
I believe many people can live for a long time feeling and
looking healthy. I didn't even fear my friends or family
scorning me because I believe they would love me no matter
what. Rather, it was the thought that I might never be able
to bear children, get married , no longer have the freedom
to fall in love without explaining my position or even having
a normal sex life anymore, shit those factors scared the
hell out of me. So we go through life like a bunch of cowards
hoping we never get that dreaded call form any of our past
lovers saying they've been tested positive or having to
take the dam test for some reason we can't control.
I say we need to be more responsible for
our actions, remembering that we are not only responsible
for our lives but for those that we come into contact with.
I firmly believe that there are benefits to taking this
test; for example you can make long term plans for your
health, you can start eating healthier and maintain an exercise
program to live a healthy life for as long as your MIND
permits you to. My friends never underestimate the healing
power of your MIND it controls how you choose to deal with
this issue, I've seen individuals who have had this disease
for years without knowing and they look and feel healthy
as ever but the minute they found out they've been tested
positive they brake down and bring sicknesses upon themselves.
This is where you must develop the power of your mind, instead
of using it for negative purposes to deal with this you
should use it to fight the dam disease and you do this by
choosing to live a long healthy life, by believing that
you can still earn a living and purchase your first home,
car, boat, anything your heart desires and you also fight
this by believing that you can still find someone to love
you and receive love for who you are. Come on people wake
up and start planning for your future, we can fight this
and help others live in the process. And what about us who
dread taking the test only to find out we were negative,
this should help you make responsible choices in the future
and avoid unnecessary stress.
Believe me the test isn't as bad as we fear
and whatever the results we just have to continue living
each day as it was our last, grateful for each breath of